Buh-Bye!

I did it!  I finally resigned! It was a hard, hard day on Friday, but it needed to be done.  I have been at my current employer for 5 years (Actually Sunday 11/27 marks the actual date of my 5 year anniversary).  It is very hard to believe I have been here this long.  Wade and I had just gotten married and were trying to get our feet underneath us - and were so hopeful that starting our family would be so easy.

My employer has been great through many happy and sad times in our house.  In some ways, some of the individuals I work with have become like family.  Over the past year, things have started to change, and my workload and stress level has continually increased.

Wade and I spent a lot of time talking, waiting-things-out, and praying for the right move for us.  It became very clear in the past month or so that the time has come for me to leave.  I need a job where I can come in, do my job, go home and BE HOME!  I have taken a job at a behavioral health hospital here in Columbia.  I will be in the traditional Social Worker role, working with patients with addictions and their families.  If any of you watch Private Practice, people like Amelia is who I will be working with.  The other half of my job will be Utilization Review working with doctors and insurance companies advocating for patients during the course of their hospitalization.

There will be no working after 5:00, there will be no late nights like I have had at my current employer, there will be no more weekend work, no more on-call AND I will be back where my heart is - advocating and working with people during some of the most challenging times of their lives.

I am very excited.  My stress level needs to come down for us to ever think about a baby Kay coming around.  I have truly enjoyed working where I work.  They have said the sweetest things to me since I have resigned.  One of the things that really stuck with me is, "you are going to do what your are made up of.  Helping others is the fabric of who you are.  You are really going to be able to change the lives of people who need you."  Yes, yes I will.

I feel very strongly led to this decision, and am hopeful that while I will be changing the lives of the patients I work with, I will finally be able to change our lives by having a baby.  This was a difficult decision for me as I do not like change, confrontation or disappointing others.  Blind faith is leading my steps!  Now would be a great time to mention how thankful I am for Wade and his steadfastness, and calm approach to life to help me to sort though all of this and to support my decision and my health.  Bracing myself for the next journey!

"We live by faith, not by sight." 2 Corinthians 5:7