I Will Be Here

We had a rather sad night last night, but a joyful day.  We went to the doctor for my post op appointment that was moved from Monday to Wednesday because of all of the snow.  The doctor said everything has healed well and removed all restrictions.  The pathology report came back clear with no areas of concern and no evidence of a partial molar pregnancy. 

We are happy about this news, but going back to the doctor brought back a lot of emotions.  Even though she said I am healed, it reminded me of what is now gone which won't come back.  I did my fair share of crying last night; harder than I think I have during this whole miscarriage process.  Wade just scooped me up and let me cry.  I heard this song today which we almost picked as our wedding song, but for some reason we didn't.  It summarizes a marriage, in the good and the hard.  We are feeling our way through the hard right now, but how nice it is to hear a song like this and to be reminded that we don't have to go through this alone.

I Will Be Here(Steven Curtis Chapman)

Tomorrow morning if you wake up

and the sun does not appear

I will be here

If in the dark, we lose sight of love

Hold my hand, and have no fear

'Cause I will be here

I will be here

When you feel like being quiet

When you need to speak your mind

I will listen

And I will be here

When the laughter turns to cryin'

Through the winning, losing and trying

We'll be together

I will be here

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up

And the future is unclear

I will be here

Just as sure as seasons were made for change

Our lifetimes were made for these years

So I will be here

I will be here

And you can cry on my shoulder

When the mirror tells us we're older

I will hold you

And I will be here

To watch you grow in beauty

And tell you all the things you are to me

I will be here

I will be true to the promise I have made

To you and to the One who gave you to me

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up

And the sun does not appear

I will be here

Oh, I will be here.