Wishin’ and a Hopin’ with some Disney Magic Sprinkled In

So Wade and I have been talking lots about our future these days. We are at a fork in the road with several different things going on. Unfortunately as much as people have wished and prayed a baby upon us and as many “Oh – you guys will be pregnant again in no time” as we have heard – it just has not been so. October will be one year since we were blessed with our first pregnancy. In the back of my mind, I wonder if the rides at the fair jiggled my insides around and made me ready to get pregnant last year.  South Carolina State Fair 2011... LOOK OUT!!

One of the things we have talked about is how many things I, Erin, mama to baby Andrew has put on hold for the past five years thinking…well… if I get pregnant this month then… well…. If I get pregnant now, then I can’t do (fill in the blank) six months from now. Five years is a friggin long time to put your goals on hold for what may or may not be! You can’t wish a baby into existence as much as I would love to…. Especially with my 30^th birthday looming on January 5^th.

With much love and encouragement from hubs, one of my goals is no longer on hold. Several factors have resulted in this decision. 1. I have always wanted to run a half marathon. 2. I am dreading my 30^thbirthday because I set a silly “goal” when I was 25 playing God one day that I wanted to either be pregnant or have our first baby in my arms by the time I was 30… (Ok Mother Nature – time is running out on that one!) 3. Wade and I both are in love with Disney World.

Conclusion? I am going to train to run the Disney Half Marathon on January 7^th, 2012 – two days after my 30^th birthday. This is a win/win situation no matter what happens. One way or another ONE of my goals will be met. I will either complete my first half marathon right at my 30^th birthday OR I will be pregnant with a healthy baby by my 30^th.

I am lucky to have a husband who supports my short and long term goals and gently guides me back on the road when I get a little crazy and off track.

(this is what I imagine Wade looking like once we have a baby)

I want nothing more than the empty room with the bay window on our second floor to become a room full of diapers, crying, rockers, laughing, tiny baby shoes and clothes and most of all, an abundant, immeasurable, drunken, heart-bursting, make you cry amount of love for a tiny human sooner than later. 

Here’s to wishin’ and a hopin’ with some Disney Magic sprinkled in.